Ok, this is awkward… but I haven’t written a blog post in over a year.
I did NOT think it had been that long. Joke’s on me, LOL.
Obviously, I'm not getting paid to do this, so it’s not a big deal. But dang, a year is a long time!
Not much has happened since September 2017 besides:
Launching The Write Hike gear (yay!)
Getting engaged
Hiking trips
Planning a wedding (in 5 months)
More hiking trips
Getting married (whoa, that was quick)
Moving (did I mention I wanted to do all big life changes possible in 1 year?)
New shirts & hats, YAY!
To be honest, just looking at that list makes me exhausted. *yawn* I’m sure I haven’t enjoyed REM sleep this past year.
I hate being that person who complains about being tired all the time, but honey - I AM TIRED. Physically. Mentally. Spiritually.
I guess you can call this stage of my life, a change of scenery. I’m in new territory with no map or directions to guide me, and certainly no tools to navigate through this new chapter in life. HELP. Sends distress signal.
I’m fresh in the marriage scene. Working on being the perfect wife. New to the neighborHOOD. Settling in in my home (and trying to keep it clean). Trying to figure out what’s for dinner. Does Chick-Fil-A count? Paying bills. Re-washing the same load because I fell asleep and forgot (that’s a real life thing ya know). Juggling relationships with family and friends, since I don’t live super close to them anymore. Investing in my career and focusing on being an all-star employee. Managing my website with new content. Feeling guilty because I can’t attend every function, every invite, or every church event. Feeling guilty because I’m behind. Feeling guilty because I’m always busy. Feeling guilty because I’m tired. Feeling guilty for feeling guilty, LOL.
Are you catching the theme here?
Yo, life is good when self-care is key.
As much as a change of scenery can rekindle my spirits, too much of anything can also suck. Sometimes, a change of scenery can also be a little lonely. Confusing. Frustrating.
Some days, I’m just trying to keep up and stay afloat as the CEO of my life. Other days, I want to take a really long nap and start over. Most days, I want to do nothing. Maybe dream about chillin’ on a tropical island like Bora Bora with a Pina Colada in hand.
But all I can do right now is take this next chapter of big life moments one day at a time, and take care of myself in the process. Two words: self care. It’s a real life thing and much needed. I learned that the hard way.
Trust me, trying to put all of the big life responsibilities, tasks and to-do lists before taking care of myself is NOT getting me ahead of the game. It only leaves me empty, with nothing left to give and nothing left to serve to others.
To enjoy all of this change of scenery, a change in pattern is necessary. And that starts with taking care of myself first.